Auteur: Abbi

We don’t sleep

A1
all the words and then the tears
from saying things that we don’t mean
because we talk but we don’t hear
as we are trying to be seen
and we already forgot what it was all about.

B1
And so we lie awake together and we stare into the night
while between us burns the fire of the demons that we fight
as they point to one another over wrong and right.

A2
‘and then it’s her voice calling out
and we get up to calm her mind
taking turns to fight her demons
as we leave our own behind
we don’t need to speak in words, we don’t need to talk

B2
and so we lie awake together as the demons come to terms (and)
the flames smothered by blankets while her hands cool down the burns
taking yours and taking mine, we don’t sleep but here we are

>>>

A3
‘cause their just fears and they are words
that don’t explain the things you mean
and so I’m here to hold you tight
and as I hold you you are seen,
you don’t need to speak in words, you don’t need to talk

B3
As the sun washes away the starlight while we lie awake
and we find something to say that breaks the silence and the day
we get up and go our way, but our love will stay
as we go our way we know this love here to stay

one day

…then one day the day came,

When only you and I

Only said we’d always be

The one in all our days

—

and I can’t recall that since that day

there has been a single one

where it wasn’t you that’s on my mind

right before I closed my eyes.

—

[ can I say it out loud

ev’ry day I am proud

to have you by my side in this life ]

—

and I know one day the day comes

when it’s only you or I who stays

and that I will say I’m glad you are

the one with me this day

 

I am glad you are the one with me on this day…

<3

All the things

All the things we think we have to carry
All the things we’re toiling on our backs
Only slow us down when we get higher
Only slow us down

All the things we saw and carry with us
All the things we capture in our heads
Only cloud our eyes and make us weary
Only cloud our eyes

So let them go
And trust that all you need is in your hands
you will find that all the love is in
the moments that you share
If you open up your eyes and let your heart
fill up with love that is your own

All the things we said one day we would
Always one more day until we do
All the difference that we’d be making if
Only today we would

All the things we never really cared for
All the little things that make our days
All the things we always took for granted
Only granted life

So say them loud
Those little things that make up all the change
Make them real and let them turn the wheels
of life and luck your way
Let them open up your eyes and your heart
fill up with love that is your own

up to us

I can see where we would be –
long before we go
but for now I’m in between
stuck in the how of what I’ve seen
I long to do what I’ve observed
in you so many times

Weak and weary was my spine
Your strength, you poored it into mine
so big your love so deep the hole
The space that I’d been making,
digging slowly in my heart
Wasteland for a brand new start

waiting for that one like you
to make it up to us

One step forward two steps back
Oh what it takes to grow – you,
bearer of the future past
Slowly, slowly will reset
me to the present time I know
counting all the steps to go

If I could hold a gun
I’d realize I was the one
that shot me in the knee,
Though I was running, never free.
It’s me, it’s always been, I’d see
But now it’s up to us

From the moment there was you
it has been up to us

intruder

You’re in my head, you’re on my mind
in silver linings intertwined
in all the thoughts that come across
un-coating them like dental floss

and all the ones that once were grey
you light them up and make them stray
like leaves that whirl without an end
in their attempt to never land.

you’re in my way, you block my sight
you fill my head with things I might
and things I will If I’d let you in
a little deeper than my skin

you’d bring your pen to cross my lines
and leave no trace of what confines
you’d blur the edges of my frame
to you the ins and out’s the same

you’d pull out drawers with my thoughts
the coulds and shoulds and woulds and oughts
you’d mess them up and throw them out
beyond the shadows of my doubt.

…

solstice

as the summer echoes fade and twilight wins terrain
before I realize, the darkness gradually
leads us towards the center of our trail
in the darkest of the night, the brightest stars revealed

lights like mirrors of the sky, illuminate the way
how distant can it be, the image that we see
as we surpass the highest peak
the slope that leads us home is where we test our will

Let me just remain on right here on the edge,
where I can see – the horizon in full
clear and bright –
staring at the world – all within my reach
in this moment of peace
before the time takes over

as the still of white makes way, for fields that overflow
the summer lies ahead – before I even know
the longest day will shed it’s light to waste
though swiftly passes by – will leave us with it’s lasting blissful taste

one and the same

ghost from the past
where did you come from overnight?
face in the crowd,
suddenly clearly in my sight.

the world frozen still –
while my mind spins back in time
I look behind –
catching the glance that’s seeking mine

and I know that you know,
that we both were in that place
where a body and mind
are one and the same

how life has passed
didn’t you notice on the way?
no time for doubt
all that we see is all there is.

and the light in your eyes
strikes a fire to the bridge
on the river in me – and I slip and fall
and get pulled down the stream like I did

out of sight out of heart for so many years
yet a void in the core of what made me to be
who I am where I stand it is suddenly shaking
the ground beneath my feet.

and a hand reaches out
pulls me up on the shore
On the pavement we stand – once again
near the edge while the people rush by like the water

all the steps that I took to the place where I’m now
How the path took a turn, and I followed it down
how I sailed with the wind and I ended up stream
in a place that is all that I know now it seems

The world picks up speed –
while my mind returns to now
I look behind –
catching the glance that’s seeking mine

and I know that you know,
that we both know that face
and our body and mind
are one and the same